I know this is going to sound more like a rant, however, this is aimed towards a HUGE number of people who are my so-called friends. I'm just sick of a few things and I want this to stop NOW.

People, let's get something straight, I do not appreciate being put down. I do not appreciate the whole "Come back to the US, you've got nothing but bad luck in Canada" thing. I do not appreciate the "You were better off in NJ" crap. Friends do not do this to friends. I understand that people miss me however, if this is how you people are going to be, then fine, be that way because I want you people to stop contacting me. I do not need people who are going to give me the "you can't do it" speech without saying it in those words. I've heard that my whole life and I'm sick of it.

If this is a mistake, then let ME learn! The more you people tell me to come home, the more I resent New Jersey and the more I hear it from ANY American, the more I resent the US. THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA IS NOT THE GREATEST NATION IN THE WORLD, PEOPLE! WAKE THE HELL UP! Stop with the forced Patriotism. It's worse than Christianity! The more Christianity is forced upon people, the more people feel the need to speak out against it and hate it.

Like any thing in this world, you have to fight for what you want. I'm still in that fight, I haven't lost completely yet. I'm sorry that you people are willing to settle for second or third best however, I'm not willing to settle for my second, third, or fourth choice. I find it funny how some of you killed yourselves in high school to get to the college of your dreams and now that your dream has come true, none of you are willing to do it again.

High School and college taught me one thing (no, it wasn't anything band, marketing, or business related) and that was that if you want it bad enough, then you should tell people to kiss your ass and go to hell where you will be there waiting for them so that you can point and laugh at them for being such freaking morons.

I understand that some of you aren't meaning it like that, however, this is how it's taken. I am a pessimist by nature. When people say crap like that to me, I take it as you people are telling me that I can't do it. Guess what, that only makes me want to spite you more and tell you to go f-off. I'm also seeing you all as selfish, childish, little brats who obviously get their way far too often. You're all being selfish. You all want your little world to be perfect especially since you seem to think that the world revolves around you but what about me? I see that you people do not want ME to be happy, it's only what you want.

So for those of you who want to be selfish, stupid, or even just don't want me to succeed because you're all afraid that some dimwitted girl with 3 learning disabilities will do what you have failed to do, I wish for you all to loose my number. Loose my name from Facebook/MySpace/etc. I don't need you people in my life. I'm still there because I care but honestly, I don't need to. Grow up, move on, and live your life!